Attitudes of sexual integrity! Dedicated to sex addiction recovery.

A need for truth in the midst of a reality of knowing the lies better. I grew up being taught and believing lies! Lies are where I feel safe. I believe lies! Even though I know if I get honest they are destroying everything! and One question I get asked a lot is this... Define Religion? Are you talking about the cold law based Religion of the Pharisees? And what does that have to do with sexual integrity? Episode 84 Music by Pillar - State of Emergency! It's a state of emergencyIt's time we seeThere's a need to take actionThis is a state of emergencyWe're too blind to seeAll of these simple distractionsAll our attention is directed to the mirrorWe want to forget that people live in terrorWe're their only way out and the time is right nowWe gotta grab a hold of this moment How far do we let it goBefore we all take controlWe are the hands We are the feetSo we gotta goStop waiting for someone else To take control(Take back the control)We could be their last hope

Time magazine reported, At the 2003 meeting of the American Academy of Matrimonial Lawyers online porn contributing to more than half of divorces in the U.S. Richard Barry, president of the association said "Pornography had an almost nonexistent role in divorce just seven or eight years ago." 70 percent of all internet porn traffic occurs during the 9-to-5 workday. Today, More people are terminated from there Job for inappropriate web use then alcoholism. The sex addict uses sex as a quick fix, or as a form of medication for anxiety, pain, loneliness, stress, or sleep. Sex addicts often refer to sex as their "pain reliever" or "tension reliever." In a popular novel, the heroine describes sex as "the thinking women's Valium." Its time for a change! The Church historically as turned a blind eye to the fact of sexual misconduct. This Church is taking a stand! Paul says to the Corinthians "It is actually reported that there is sexual immorality among you, and of a kind that is not tolerated even among pagans," This is now, today. This from the Barna report. "Born-again" Christians are more likely to go through a marital split than are non-Christians, according to a new study by the Barna Research Group. Revelation 2:29 "Are your ears awake? Listen. Listen to the Wind Words, the Spirit blowing through the churches." (the message translation) Have Christians today got good at making every thing look good on the surface? Jesus said in Luke 4:16-19 "The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim liberty to the captives and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor." Do we abide in that truth or merely believe it?

Episode 82 - The Full Armor of God – last show the stuff I missed. The New Young!? Why is there so many references to the “new life” or “new beginnings” in Christianity? Can’t anybody stick with it? What dose it really mean to be young, again?Romans 8:35-39 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? 36 As it is written, "For your sake we are being killed all the day long;we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered." 37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. John 6:37-40 All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out. 38 For I have come down from heaven, not to do my own will but the will of him who sent me. 39 And this is the will of him who sent me, that I should lose nothing of all that he has given me, but raise it up on the last day.40 For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day."

It all makes sense right!? Has my heart caught up with it yet? Praying for grace realized, Relationship of love realized, Praying for strength, Praying for peace in my own heart as an ambassador in chains. Eph 6:19-20 (ESV) and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel, 20for which I am an ambassador in chains, that I may declare it boldly, as I ought to speak.Eph 6:19-20 (Message) And don't forget to pray for me. Pray that I'll know what to say and have the courage to say it at the right time, telling the mystery to one and all, the Message that I, jailbird preacher that I am, am responsible for getting out.

EPH 6:17 and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God,Lyrics: Linkin Park - Easier to Run It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Something has been taken From deep inside of me A secret I've kept locked away No one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show They never go away Like moving pictures in my head For years and years they've played If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could take all the shame to the grave I would, Its easier to run!

The shield of Faith - I want to call your attention to this one piece of the armor carried by the blood bought. The shield that Paul had in mind here is not the small, round dish looking thing, but the oblong, door-like shield, measuring 4' x 2 ', curved to the shape of the body and carried by the Greek and Roman soldiers. When joined together, these large shields formed a wall behind which a body of troops could hide themselves from the rain of the enemy's missiles. These military shields were made of wood, covered on the out side with thick leather, which not only deadened the shock of the missile, but protected the frame of the shield from the fire-tipped darts used in the artillery of the ancients. Contrary to popular teaching, faith is not mental delusion, behavior replacement or presumption and it is not evidenced by self-bolstering surface sucess, but a work of the Holy Spirit from the inside out. Roots to fruits.EPH 6:16 (KJV) "Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked." Rom 10:17 (NIV) Faith comes by hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ.

Visualizing the need for shoes! the ground is hard, hot, sharp and like it or not we need to strap on, to put on shoes. to get us up to embrace the comming days with readiness. Ephesians 6:15 (Amplified Bible) And having shod your feet in preparation [to face the enemy with the firm-footed stability, the promptness, and the readiness produced by the good news] of the Gospel of peace. 1 Corinthians 9:27 (Amplified Bible) 27But [like a boxer] I buffet my body [handle it roughly, discipline it by hardships] and subdue it, for fear that after proclaiming to others the Gospel and things pertaining to it, I myself should become unfit [not stand the test, be unapproved and rejected as a counterfeit].

Episode 76 - The Exhale Episode!Stand firm, therefore, having fastened the belt of truth around your waist, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, EPH 6:14Ever feel like this… Putting on righteousness how does that work? Just get right!? Just stop doing that!? Like righteousness in just something I can pick up and put on?! I’ve tried, That!!! They told me just do these steps and it will all go away and I’m still stuck!Please God help! Russ attempts to answer what it is to put on the breast plate of righteousness, in the realm of sexual integrity.

Fasting on the belt of truth!? What does it mean? what do I put a spiritual belt around? What is the truth about where we are, truth about who we are? How can I fastening on the belt of truth help me see clearly the truth of my own heart condition?Music by Seventh Day Slumber!

Life is 20% what happens to you and 80% how you react to that 20%Ephesians 6 (The Message) 10-12 And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. This is no afternoon athletic contest that we'll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels. The Message Bible Copyright © 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2000, 2001, 2002 by Eugene H. Peterson

Email response show. Russ lets out some heart felt apologies to the religious people who have contacted ASI in Wile he throws down a challenge! Are you ready to prepare for war? Main Entry: cour·age Pronunciation: k r-ij, k -rij :mean mental or moral strength to resist opposition, danger, or hardship. Courage implies firmness of mind and will in the face of danger or extreme difficulty the courage to support unpopular causes . mettle suggests an ingrained capacity for meeting strain or difficulty with fortitude and resilience a challenge that will test your mettle . spirit also suggests a quality of temperament enabling one to hold one's own or keep up one's morale when opposed or threatened her spirit was unbroken by failure . resolution stresses firm determination to achieve one's ends the resolution of pioneer women . tenacity adds to resolution implications of stubborn persistence and unwillingness to admit defeat held to their beliefs with great tenacity .Thanks to merriam-webster.com

The full Armor of God! What dose that mean for us in this day and age? Who are the Ephesians and what do the have to do with my culture?In 1962 J.C.R. Licklider writes memos about his Intergalactic Network concept, where everyone on the globe is interconnected and can access programs and data at any site from anywhere. He is talking to his own ‘Intergalactic Network’ of researchers across the country. In October, ‘Lick’ becomes the first head of the computer research program at ARPA, which sets the foundation of this elecrtonic cyber city we know as the internet. A city not unlike Ephesus, A city of blood thirsty sin and a city Jesus came to speak to. And like Ephesus city the apostle Paul the man who wrote two thirds of your new testament, spent 3 or 4 years in.

The full Armor of God! What dose that mean for us in this day and age? Who are the Ephesians and what do the have to do with my culture? In 1946 Benjamin "Bugsy" Siegel opened the flamingo hotel and casino in Las Vegas Nevada. A city he built from a hick town to one of the entertainment capitols of the world. Bugsy not unlike some of the people Jesus was criticized for hang in out with and Las Vegas a city not unlike Ephesus, a city the apostle Paul the man who wrote two thirds of your new testament, spent 3 or 4 years in.

The bible is centuries old! Is it really a credible book for over coming addiction in this day and age? How do I trust God’s book when I’m having a hard enough time trusting God? Or I’ve herd this all before, What does it really mean to put on the full armor of God? Music by fireflight and Curt.

Sexual addiction and the prosperity gospel? What does that mean? Who am I gonna be? Why am I where I'm at.Leona lewis - Bleeding love lyrics. My heart melts into the ground Found something true And everyone's looking round Thinking I'm going crazy But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling But nothing's greater Than the rush that comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love.Shout outs to xxxchurch and higher-calling.com Keep fighting!

Part 2 of Words that put heart in them! Email response show. Is my negativity toward 12 step and religion hurting people? From The Bible, Luke 3 The message version. Luke 3:16-17 (The Message) But John intervened: "I'm baptizing you here in the river. The main character in this drama, to whom I'm a mere stagehand, will ignite the kingdom life, a fire, the Holy Spirit within you, changing you from the inside out. He's going to clean house make a clean sweep of your lives. He'll place everything true in its proper place before God; everything false he'll put out with the trash to be burned." 18-20There was a lot more of this words that gave strength to the people, words that put heart in them. The Message! But Herod, the ruler, stung by John's rebuke in the matter of Herodias, his brother Philip's wife, capped his long string of evil deeds with this outrage: He put John in jail.

Email response show. Is my negativity toward 12 step and religion hurting people? From The Bible, Luke 3 The message version. 16-17But John intervened: "I'm baptizing you here in the river. The main character in this drama, to whom I'm a mere stagehand, will ignite the kingdom life, a fire, the Holy Spirit within you, changing you from the inside out. He's going to clean house—make a clean sweep of your lives. He'll place everything true in its proper place before God; everything false he'll put out with the trash to be burned." 18-20There was a lot more of this—words that gave strength to the people, words that put heart in them. The Message! But Herod, the ruler, stung by John's rebuke in the matter of Herodias, his brother Philip's wife, capped his long string of evil deeds with this outrage: He put John in jail.

Email response show, lets get more stories of victory! The victory over this addiction (or any other for that matter) has to do with a deep heart level thirst. The question is a thirst for what? The most important step of the 12 steps? Step one “you have a problem. Your life has become unmanageable.” But how deep does that go? Are we really ever in control really? Why is this world so broken? That is the question, Like a splinter in your mind driving you mad. A listener said to me “it seems like this is a thinking disease”, I believe there is some truth there. But how deep are our thoughts?

Episode 65 - Visualization, Impulse control - The life giving freedom of self control. Narcissism is not freedom, What does it mean to say no to your self? “Repentance” is a word a lot of stuffy religious people have sole in order to control people through fear and shame. Real repentance is, in part why your reading this right now. Your looking for change, looking answers, Right? Is something in your behavior controlling you? Your not in control of your own flesh? Not in control of you? If your seeking your are repentant.Music by Ruth, Against me! and Jonah 33.

Episode 64 -The Church is great at helping to remove stains. Drugs and alcohol addicts are welcomed with open arms. I believe the church has compassion for the hurting hearts of addicts.But sexuality runs deep, Sexual addiction, sexually compulsive behavior or same sex attraction is deeper then getting out the cleansers out and scrubbing the dirty stains of the surface. What happens when all the getting saved, prayer and all the recovery material doesn’t seem to work?What do you do when you still haven’t found what your looking for. Music by U2, Pillar and This Beautiful Republic.

A Talk by Russ Shaw did to a men's group in Everett WA,USA. Addressing Christian sub-culture about getting real. if we believe Grace is Amazing then why are we faking it?Pride is one of those invisible barriers that blocks you from even asking the question!

Episode 62 - Reloaded the 2 dog story.The chief was sitting at the edge of the village, obviously deep in thought. He sat there for hours and hours, seemingly unmoving. The tribe was beginning to get worried and restless, but nobody wanted to disturb him. An elder eventually got up his courage and walked over. 'Chief,' he asked, 'what's going on? You look so troubled!' The chief just sat there, and the elder thought that he had not heard. Finally the chief spoke. And he said: 'You know, it's like there are two dogs fighting inside of me all the time - a dog of glowing light and beauty and a dog of fire. This dog is not glowing with the light but, life choking smoke and consuming fire. He is mean, irritable, and angry. It is driven by fear, and has me look at the world through the lens of shortage, struggle, and judgment. This is how I am when I'm feeling small, anxious, and spiritually disconnected.The dog Light is guided by love and kindness. This is the part of me that longs to live with purpose and to have an impact on the world. It is my God given soul my authentic self, my essence and my creativity live here, as does my intuition, faith, and sense of connection and compassion.. And the fire and smoke dog is constantly fighting the glowing light dog.' The elder looked at the chief and said quietly, 'Chief, so which dog wins?' The chief sat quietly for a moment, and then replied: 'the one I feed the most.'I totally identify with that story and this one. I am this women, If we get honest we all are! The Woman At the well.

A letter to Ash. A christian man publicly in the think of the fight!Ash I'm not some guru dude, I don't have it all together.You think I never felt like that? Wanting to quit? having QUIT! It's way to hard I can do this. Truth be told you can't! On your own!God did not do this to You ASH! You and I did it to our selfs God did not give it to us! That is a lie from hell. The guilt and shame you feel is from the accuser. Revelation 12:10 Calles the devil the accuser of the brethren accusing them day and night.Read more at ASI247.org

This show is expliced! Russ gets deep and does not hold back his heart for this ministry. Luke 15:1-10 (NIV) The Parable of the Lost Sheep!1Now the tax collectors and "sinners" were all gathering around to hear him. 2But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, "This man welcomes sinners and eats with them." 3Then Jesus told them this parable: 4"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.' 7I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

Agent Smith: "Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet - you are a plague. And we... are the cure." 2 Corinthans 5:21 God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.Jesus became my sin, he became a sex addict a liar an adulterer. He paid the debt. In him I’m righteous.Faith and a deep relationship with Jesus is understanding Love! And what god has already done! Revelation 12:11 says “They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.Trinity: "The answer is out there, Neo. It's looking for you. And it will find you, if you want it to."

The Matrix and "ALONE" what is this feeling of being trapped inside ones self? Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. How do we get fully Alive and bust out of the matrix?

Episode 57 - Building it to fullness - Email resoponce show. Where do we get bricks to build this thing?

Episode 56 - Building? What? How? Straight talk on purity!Building on a landscape what does that mean?Tips and news on home building I want to build my house the best cost efficient and environmental friendly way.I built my home doing all my own labor. Mortgage-Free!: Radical Strategies for Home Ownership.

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